this is nendoroid normal mode....
and this is nendoroid sick mode....
or nendoroid H1N1 ready Mode...kikiki~
[Note: Facemask not included in the Nendoroid package..hEe..]
im sick...
and im tired of being sick...
for about two years six months now
im sick..sick and sick again...
i have been in and out of the hospital and
could not quite keep up with my medical bills...
i had become a regular with my doctor's office
i can now literally distinguish her breath from the nurses.
Along with other doctors...
we have tried to eliminate every possible disease..
infection or whatever thing that is causing my body to feel this way...
i am now quite familiar with that 'tickling pain'
every needle had to go through to go over that
fine layer of skin..
to get that precious little red drops of blood
and be checked quite continuously
for new stuff...
And every time they send it to lab..
my doctor and i would cross our fingers and hope that finally..
but...we could figure it all out...
So that in turn..
they could give me the right prescription..
for how can they give me the right medication
if they dont know what’s wrong with me..??
its pretty much like giving me
'penadol' for my recurring headaches but
not really sure whats causing my head to hurt..
short relief...
and not much of a help...
im tired...
im tired...
im very very tired...
im sick of being tired....
im tired of all the pills i had to swallow everyday...
the fear of the consequence of not taking them is
heavier than the fear of other things that
those pesky powerful pills might do to my stomach.
different colors...
shapes and sizes...
each variety carries an extra add-on
to my weak immune system more side effects.
thanks to those pills..at my age
i now officially have nerve problem and
low-blood pressure as well...
that was on top of my early signs of gout..
they still give me a few sets of *****
to maintain my now weakened nerves...
they are now also trying to monitor my heart...
pretty soon my brain would follow suit...
after that i dont exactly know..
hrmm...
with all these technology that we have..
i could not accept the idea why they
could not quite figure out what i have...
they initially rounded-up the usual suspects like :
~whooping cough..
~bronchitis..
~pneumonia..
~tuberculosis..
~laryngitis..
~heart disease..
they even drum-rolled some of the diseases
with exotic names that i am not familiar with..
but they eventually cleared them all...
~They kept on telling
me the presence
of too much
white blood cells in my body.
indicative that it somehow
is fighting an infection..
the thing is.. they could not
figure out what infection.
maybe after im dead..
they would finally figure out what is..
**please take care my nendoroid erk..
cause i love her so much...
and im tired of being sick...
for about two years six months now
im sick..sick and sick again...
i have been in and out of the hospital and
could not quite keep up with my medical bills...
i had become a regular with my doctor's office
i can now literally distinguish her breath from the nurses.
Along with other doctors...
we have tried to eliminate every possible disease..
infection or whatever thing that is causing my body to feel this way...
i am now quite familiar with that 'tickling pain'
every needle had to go through to go over that
fine layer of skin..
to get that precious little red drops of blood
and be checked quite continuously
for new stuff...
And every time they send it to lab..
my doctor and i would cross our fingers and hope that finally..
but...we could figure it all out...
So that in turn..
they could give me the right prescription..
for how can they give me the right medication
if they dont know what’s wrong with me..??
its pretty much like giving me
'penadol' for my recurring headaches but
not really sure whats causing my head to hurt..
short relief...
and not much of a help...
im tired...
im tired...
im very very tired...
im sick of being tired....
im tired of all the pills i had to swallow everyday...
the fear of the consequence of not taking them is
heavier than the fear of other things that
those pesky powerful pills might do to my stomach.
different colors...
shapes and sizes...
each variety carries an extra add-on
to my weak immune system more side effects.
thanks to those pills..at my age
i now officially have nerve problem and
low-blood pressure as well...
that was on top of my early signs of gout..
they still give me a few sets of *****
to maintain my now weakened nerves...
they are now also trying to monitor my heart...
pretty soon my brain would follow suit...
after that i dont exactly know..
hrmm...
with all these technology that we have..
i could not accept the idea why they
could not quite figure out what i have...
they initially rounded-up the usual suspects like :
~whooping cough..
~bronchitis..
~pneumonia..
~tuberculosis..
~laryngitis..
~heart disease..
they even drum-rolled some of the diseases
with exotic names that i am not familiar with..
but they eventually cleared them all...
~They kept on telling
me the presence
of too much
white blood cells in my body.
indicative that it somehow
is fighting an infection..
the thing is.. they could not
figure out what infection.
maybe after im dead..
they would finally figure out what is..
**please take care my nendoroid erk..
cause i love her so much...
be tough..
:D [comel x sy senyum?]
dop...tuh senyuman gedik..kikiki~
[mekacih nurim..]
there is still hope bro.
we all are here for you.
praying for your health.
:D
ps*
blo nk gie kbmoll plok?lenih ado parkson dh weih.
hee
thanks..
*wOo~! parkson..?? kot celoh mano lop yo yo ado..?? kelate maju lonih..
kikiki~
yeah..
kami sntiasa m'doakn ksihatan anda..
hehehe..
*br taw klate maju?isk2..
mekasih mex ani...hEe..
*xtaw pun..btaun doh xkelep..wUu...
nati lah..suatu hari nati..kelep lah..XD
haih.
apart from that.
jaley kb pun laen dh lenih beb.
sosat mu kalu aku tuhuk di bndar kb nuh.
=P
ceSs...ingat aku ile ingate ko xingat lako..? ceit~!
bo kb tuh aku tutup mato pom bulis jale wei..haha
hoho.
hihi~
yaaa.
kita ikhtiar la gano pn selagi langit masih ada.
tawakal bebanyak.
eheh
tuh lah...langit duk gelap skmo lonih..uje..time uje tuh wak aku sakit jatum..sejuk..hEe..